Dear Breckette Ann,

On March 8, 2013 you changed our lives, and oh how my cup overflows. You are the center of our world, my sweet girl. Your name is unique much like you are. You are special and one of a kind. We just felt a tie to the name Breckette not sure why, but it just fit. Your middle name, Ann, comes from your Grandma and Nana. It's extra special you see, because it is their middle name too!

When you first arrived you didn't even cry just looked up at your daddy and the two of you stared in wonder at eachother. It was a rare special moment that only the two of you will forever share.
It wasn't an easy fight to get you here. Your mommy and daddy faught hard for you, baby girl, just as we always will. But you came into this world as the light of our lives. You were the most perfect 7lb 5oz little girl I've ever seen. With the most radient blue eyes. A blue that only rivals that of the deep ocean or the most perfect clear summer day. Breathtaking! (They are much like your daddy's eyes...just as I prayed for) Your hair was a spitting image of mine..dark! Although, it didn't stay that way for long. Gourgeous, simply gourgeous is what you are!
When we finally got to take you home it was probably the most scary thing I've gone through. I didn't know what to do. I was a new mom with the biggest gift of her life and you were mine to take care of. I read all the books I could on preparing for you, but here we were just your dad, me and you. All those late nights of just me and you....well I wouldn't take them back for anything! It wasn't easy but we've managed just fine. You and me baby girl, we conqured our fears and trials and created memories along the way. I don't think I could as for anything more.
You were so loved on by so many! You are one lucky girl!! You had people coming in from all across the US just to see your beautiful smile. And boy did you smile that beautiful smile for them and anyone else. I pray there is never a doubt in your mind how much you are loved. It spans across the US by people who have never even met you, yet love you more than words can describe. And that doesn't even come close to how much we love you.

I'm gunna fill you in on a little secret...your daddy is a big softy when it comes to you. Oh how I wish you could see him with you from my point of view! The love and bond you two share fills the room like the warm light from a blazing red sunset. It fills me with more joy than words could possibly describe. And you eat it up. You are his biggest fan. When you look at him, you can see it all over your face that he is your first true love, your prince in shining armour, your hero, YOUR DADDY. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
My sweet sweet girl time is flying by. The first 6 months of your life zipped by far too fast. If only I could some how slow it down or save it in a jar just to be able to look back at these moments. But thats not possible so I sit back and watch in awe of the beautiful gift that you are. You are growing and developing and changing everyday and we couldn't be more proud of you.You are so smart! Watching you learn how to smile, roll, laugh, sit, play and now eating it is such a wonderful journey.
The Lord has blessed us beyond belief. Your gentle spirit is unfolding in front of our eyes and I cannot wait to see what the Lord is going to do with it. He has big plans for you and of that I'm sure!
And that smile, oh that smile!!! You are so quick to smile and I pray that you stay that way. Latch onto that joy and keep it in you forever. You light up a room and fill it with so much joy just from that smile. Never let that go , my love.

You are my joy.

With all my love,
Mom

 

 

Week 28

Our Little Miss,

I'm not sure why this week was so much harder than the others have been, but it was. I think realizing that that this time of just us is coming to an end made for a bitter-sweet week. I don't know if I am ready to share you with the rest of the world quite yet. That's just your mama being selfish though, because there is a great deal of anticipation, excitement and love waiting for you to join the world.

I heard a song on one of my walks toward the end of this week and {don't laugh at me} it brought me to tears. I have been praying for you daily and sometimes they aren't even a prayer but more a dream for you. The words don't always come, but the song of my heart sings for you. Well, this part of the song was like it was the words to the melody of my heart; the song that is my love, hopes, and dreams for you.

"I wanna give her the world

I wanna hold her hand

I wanna hold her close for as long as I can

I wanna show her what it means to be loved"

In those four simple lines my heart burst open with everything coming out. My fears, my hopes for you, my dreams of your future, my desire to show you what it means to be loved with no end all came gushing out right there on the sidewalk. As I continued my walk and talk with you and the Lord I realized that in that moment you and I were exactly where the Lord wanted us to be; in today. With that came an overwhelming sense of peace and the Lord granted me a brief look at all the love that will surround you, and I knew...everything is going to be just fine.

Precious daughter, we are so excited to meet you. Your daddy and I dream about what you will look like and what our lives will be like with you in it. He may not admit it yet, but you have him wrapped around your finger already! It's so sweet how much he loves you. He will rush over just to feel you move. Oh I can't wait for you two to truly meet!! It wont be long now...

All my love,
Mama

To Our Little Miss

Little Miss,

Today we found out you were a little GIRL! Your daddy and I were so surprised and excited that I think our hearts skipped a beat. You took our breath away sweet girl. Just seeing you on the screen and hearing your heartbeat melted our hearts, but knowing you were our little miss changed everything. 

You don't know this yet, but your mama is a thinker. I can be analytical to a fault, and equally as emotional. And because of this, I notice so much; the ticking clock, life going by, and all the changes whirling by us. I feel like we are in our own little cocoon, the two of us, and the world keeps speeding along, tugging at us to hurry up. And now here we are halfway through this journey together, and you're growing bigger and bigger by the day. Developing and changing, yet already perfect. Since finding out you are a precious little girl my mind has been spinning. Will your eyes be the brilliant blue of your daddy's or the deep brown of mine? Will your hair be blonde or dark brown? I am certain you will have curls just like both of us! And they will be darling, of course. Will you like oranges or hate them (because that's all I eat right now)?  Will you be a tiny petite little thing like me or will your daddy bless you with some height? So many questions have come and gone and yet the Lord has granted me with an overwhelming amount of peace. I know you are perfect, just as He has planned you to be. 

I thank God everyday for choosing us to be your parents. I pray the Lord guides us to raise you to not be all that we want you to be, but rather all that He wants you to be. You are worth more than all the riches on earth and I pray you will grow to know that and embrace that you are loved beyond measure. We pray you will grow to be a Godly, righteous woman whose heart yearns for Christ. And I pray that even now the Lord is molding a boy to grow to be the man not just of your dreams or ours, but of Christ's dreams for you. Our love for you already pours out of our hearts. I wish you could see your daddy's face every time he says she now. His eyes light up just from saying the word. You are already his world sweet girl, and that will never change. It melts my heart to see him so in love with you already and he hasn't even met you yet.   

We love you sweet Little Miss of ours. You are perfect in every way and we are so blessed to have you. We cannot wait to meet you!!

All my love and then some,
Mama